EVERYTHING'S SO FUCKED UP.
I KNOW IF I CONTINUE BEING LIKE THAT I'D LOSE EVERYTHING.
This feelings sucks, and i know it's all my fault. MY FAULT MY FAULT. WHY CANT I JUST...
And stop influencing people kay, ass -.- Sigh...
...
Fuck.
My heart's into pieces and it's so hard to act as if it's okay.
I just don't know why.
Sometimes i cant even seem to understand myself.
What i'm thinking, what i really want.
I dont know, i dont know why.
And when things are right i just make them wrong.
I don't know what im doing.
I just... cant seem to control myself.
Why why why?
Now, it's like people stabbing me at the heart twice in a row.
And now, i finally realise how childish i was.
I knew it was impossible.
Yet why am i still carrying this little hope in my heart?
I must stop this dream. Stop all this hurt and pain.
Sometimes i just feel like running away, to somewhere nobody knows me, somewhere i can be myself.
So i can start all over again. Forget about all this stupid mistakes i'd made. I want to let go of everything, but this funny little part of me tells me to hold on.
Yeah i know i'm bitch. BUT WHAT THE HELL PEOPLE CANT SEEM TO UNDERSTAND AND ACCEPT ME FOR WHO I AM.
UGH.
it feels so good to be alone.
it feels so good to be alone.
