Hey. Got banned from the computer, yay. Now i'm using the computer secretly so i could at least update my blog a little before i'm gone. Yeah i know im bad.
Ooh the holidays are finally here. I can finally take a deep breath and relax. Got so many things planned~~ 8D Like hanging out with my girlfriends and watching movies.
BTW, I saw a uber cute guy yesterday over at esplanade. OHBBY he's from korea, he wore black framed glasses and he look just like jaejoong, just that he's a bit shorter. He looked sad, and it's quite obvious he's trying to hide it. He forced out smiles; he seems so alone, so lonely, like those guys in dramas whom always get hurt in their love life. Somehow i pity him and i want to console him. I don't know what i'm talking haha. :)
I want to indulge myself into other people's world, so i'll watch korean dramas. Those sad but amusing dramas that will make me cry my souls out and laugh my head off.
In fact i'd do anything that can distract me from this world i'm currently in. It ain't fun, ain't interesting, ain't happy. Every minute i feel like i'll just break down. I'm so tired, i tried so hard, but to no avail, and it's like everything's against me. I can't do anything right; and making my parents disappointed is the only thing i master.
That's why i said i want to distract myself. I want to let go, put everything behind my back and relax for just a while - even if it's just for a few minutes, as long as i feel free of troubles.
I feel so lonely these days. There's nobody to comfort me when i'm hurt, nobody to chat with when i'm bored, nobody to pour my sorrows out to, nobody to sms. I'm all alone, in the bedroom all the time - daydreaming about unrealistic things, or listening to blasting music, or just staring into space. I feel empty.
Friends making me disappointed over and over again, but i remained silent everytime; i didn't say a word. I tried to forgive and forget, and i hope that by doing so everything will be much better & easier. Oh, i don't forgive because i'm weak, i forgive because i'm strong enough to know that people make mistakes. I convinced myself that things don't always go right, although i know that i'm obviously lying. Speaking about which, i lie too much. Okay i must stop this sickening habit, though i must tell white lies sometimes.
I need a hug people. A HEARTWARMING, LOVELY, SWEET HUG. A hug that makes me forget everything. Ugh.
Bye people, i'm off to re-watch Boys Over Flowers.
On a side note - Miss Lim, i will definitely miss you. I can't believe you're leaving just because of us... You must've hated us to the core, haven't you? :( I'm guilty of my previous actions, and if i could turn back time i wouldn't be so rowdy and noisy, i'll be more responsible and obedient, i'd improve on all of my weaknessess, i'd do anything that makes you happy... Because i want you back, Miss Lim. This is all so sudden and abrupt.. Miss Lim, you do so much for us, although it might not be visible to some, i can see your effort. You're a great teacher; i'm not lying this time. I will never ever forget you, Miss Lim. Although i only know you for a few months, you will be in my heart forever.
Bye Miss Lim, perhaps leaving would be a better choice for you. Fight on for your future! :D
